There are good days and there are bad days, and this is one of them.




so ... here it goes ...


i woke up in the morning and i found out that

i'm gonna be lazy to day

so i just brushed my teeth

didn't even bother to shower

lay back down

this time i read a book

you know that one

' I LOST MY MOBILE AT THE MALL '

yeah that one . . .


but before i start to read

i went downstairs

for breakfast

but instead

it turns out to be

not-my-type-of-food breakfast

and my usual morning tea was finished .


' GREAT ' isn't it . . .

i really love my effin life


--------------------------------------

yup .

i end up washing clothes .

with hand .


but ,

surprisingly

i kinda like it

i mean its like

your playing with water .

even tough your hands , arms

can debilitate ( tired )

and

the epithelial cells

accidentally cut by scrubbing to hard

and leaves a cute deteriorate red mark .

geddit ?



its fun .

but i didn't show a

smiley .


yeah if not i'm gonna get another smack .

so i decided to be rebellious .

but i gotten smacks even more .

but its better than showing some stupid smiley

across my stupid full of disloyal tears and mucus face .

right?


---------------------------------------------------





me and my mom were in the mall .

btw , that mall above is pretty . IDK from which country its from .but they're sure lucky enough to have a very artistic design mall . Not that my country doesn't have , LOL .
its just . . .
that mall is very pretty .


- ha .ha .ha . -

it does meant something else right but don't worry i'm not in love with a mall .


i'll cut it to the chase .


i had the most quietest shopping ever

and you can put it in the worlds records .

i wanted a jacket .

i badly wanted that jacket i saw .

but ,

mom said ,

"Where you want to where?"

it means . . .

( our country one of the tropical descendant so

i'm wearing a jacket made of jeans will just add river of sweats in me . )


i thought ,

SO WHAT ! ! !

but i thought only so i did not say it .


I REALLY LOVE THAT JACKET .

when i turn 18 ,

i'm gonna find some 'green' ( cash )

and buy that jacket .

( ! ! ! )

i mean it . -- i guess --


i suck badly at confronting my mom and father .

really bad .

so mostly they don't understand me and think of

many things that is sooo nothing gotta do with me .

but i know don't blame them .

its my fault .

i was born like that so what to do .

if its meant to be like that ,' people don't understand me ' ,

so be it .

-------------------------------------------------

yeah . yeah .


all the quiet feeling goes on .




skip again .



mostly i keep my feelings to myself .

i did not speak much .


we went back home .

and i'm still sulking cuz of that stupid jacket i can't get

cuz i'm being stupidly coward .


but my mom did not know .

OF COURSE .

i put a big stupid smiley across my stupid drama face .


i went to my room

and i let all the drama stop .


----------------------------------------------


oh BTW ,

i rode back home by bus

and stupidly i insert the card backward

cuz my mind was still on the jacket

and the bus driver was laughing lowly

and i too laugh just to cover all the shame i'm feeling cuz for

years i've been riding that red bus

( im still a student so i ride that bus while others ride their wealthy cars with their wealthy parents --- my school mostly consist of wealthy people --- and the bus drivers knows me . )

*sigh*


i laugh then apologize the bus driver .

GREAT .

the bus was full .

two seats left :

- one at the back

- one at the most front .


mom took the back and looked at me

that says sit there .
sit in front .


ANOTHER GREAT COMING TRUE .


i hesitate but just want to keep her happy

i sat in front with

3 bangladesh'i' looking at me

and

an old , talks-to-himself-crazily-rapid-man beside me .

=(




I NEED TO CRY
secretly



so i read the

I LOST MY MOBILE AT THE MALL

book .


I LOST TRACK OF TIME

and that's a good thing .


next . . .


i'm at my home .


in my room .


sighing a lot .


reads that book .

until i sleep .







I CAN SLEEP 4 DAYS

WITHOUT WAKING UP

AND KNOWING THAT LIFE SUCKS .


GOODBYE .

There are good days and there are bad days, and this is one of them.




so ... here it goes ...


i woke up in the morning and i found out that

i'm gonna be lazy to day

so i just brushed my teeth

didn't even bother to shower

lay back down

this time i read a book

you know that one

' I LOST MY MOBILE AT THE MALL '

yeah that one . . .


but before i start to read

i went downstairs

for breakfast

but instead

it turns out to be

not-my-type-of-food breakfast

and my usual morning tea was finished .


' GREAT ' isn't it . . .

i really love my effin life


--------------------------------------

yup .

i end up washing clothes .

with hand .


but ,

surprisingly

i kinda like it

i mean its like

your playing with water .

even tough your hands , arms

can debilitate ( tired )

and

the epithelial cells

accidentally cut by scrubbing to hard

and leaves a cute deteriorate red mark .

geddit ?



its fun .

but i didn't show a

smiley .


yeah if not i'm gonna get another smack .

so i decided to be rebellious .

but i gotten smacks even more .

but its better than showing some stupid smiley

across my stupid full of disloyal tears and mucus face .

right?


---------------------------------------------------





me and my mom were in the mall .

btw , that mall above is pretty . IDK from which country its from .but they're sure lucky enough to have a very artistic design mall . Not that my country doesn't have , LOL .
its just . . .
that mall is very pretty .


- ha .ha .ha . -

it does meant something else right but don't worry i'm not in love with a mall .


i'll cut it to the chase .


i had the most quietest shopping ever

and you can put it in the worlds records .

i wanted a jacket .

i badly wanted that jacket i saw .

but ,

mom said ,

"Where you want to where?"

it means . . .

( our country one of the tropical descendant so

i'm wearing a jacket made of jeans will just add river of sweats in me . )


i thought ,

SO WHAT ! ! !

but i thought only so i did not say it .


I REALLY LOVE THAT JACKET .

when i turn 18 ,

i'm gonna find some 'green' ( cash )

and buy that jacket .

( ! ! ! )

i mean it . -- i guess --


i suck badly at confronting my mom and father .

really bad .

so mostly they don't understand me and think of

many things that is sooo nothing gotta do with me .

but i know don't blame them .

its my fault .

i was born like that so what to do .

if its meant to be like that ,' people don't understand me ' ,

so be it .

-------------------------------------------------

yeah . yeah .


all the quiet feeling goes on .




skip again .



mostly i keep my feelings to myself .

i did not speak much .


we went back home .

and i'm still sulking cuz of that stupid jacket i can't get

cuz i'm being stupidly coward .


but my mom did not know .

OF COURSE .

i put a big stupid smiley across my stupid drama face .


i went to my room

and i let all the drama stop .


----------------------------------------------


oh BTW ,

i rode back home by bus

and stupidly i insert the card backward

cuz my mind was still on the jacket

and the bus driver was laughing lowly

and i too laugh just to cover all the shame i'm feeling cuz for

years i've been riding that red bus

( im still a student so i ride that bus while others ride their wealthy cars with their wealthy parents --- my school mostly consist of wealthy people --- and the bus drivers knows me . )

*sigh*


i laugh then apologize the bus driver .

GREAT .

the bus was full .

two seats left :

- one at the back

- one at the most front .


mom took the back and looked at me

that says sit there .
sit in front .


ANOTHER GREAT COMING TRUE .


i hesitate but just want to keep her happy

i sat in front with

3 bangladesh'i' looking at me

and

an old , talks-to-himself-crazily-rapid-man beside me .

=(




I NEED TO CRY
secretly



so i read the

I LOST MY MOBILE AT THE MALL

book .


I LOST TRACK OF TIME

and that's a good thing .


next . . .


i'm at my home .


in my room .


sighing a lot .


reads that book .

until i sleep .







I CAN SLEEP 4 DAYS

WITHOUT WAKING UP

AND KNOWING THAT LIFE SUCKS .


GOODBYE .